There is no point at which I fall,
Except inside myself,
The sun bleeds into stars and I'm still here,
Still waiting,
Still hoping,
Another letter draws near,
I hold my breath and take a leap,
Until your words break my heart into a thousand pieces,
I'm losing sight,
Losing hope,
If tears could scream they'd say your name,
The salt would sting your ears, your lips,
My soul, my being I've placed with you,
I ache to the bone,
Out of breath,
Out of time,
Your words I grieve,
My dreams I bleed,
Today tomorrow, every day until the sun bursts into nothing,
My wish for change is not enough,
You really got me this time,
I surrender.
Candylandcontemplatingthiswritinglifething. OUT.
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Are they lyrics of yours? They're wonderful. I'm in a bit of a writing slump these past couple of weeks and it's making me feel stressed. :o(
Are we allowed to be in the middle? Honestly I haven't written a word on my WIP in a week, but crit group is going okay, and somehow the blog is really popular lately, even though I'm only writing crap posts. I've no idea what any of it means but Tim is really tired these days.
Cheer up Charlie! You won another twitter pitch contest because you are awesome! And we all live you and your words.
I'm celebrating neither highs or lows. Still cruising down the centerline, playing it safe, avoiding both the steep shoulders and the passing lane. *sigh* :)
Well, you know where I am at. Kinda in the middle waiting on that *right* agent to say, "Girlfriend, I loves ya. And I want to represent your awesomeness."
In the mean time I am working on my WIP. Which I plan to have COMPLETELY finished in a year. Although I haven't written in a week. Took the week off. Needed to. Now I get back at it today. BTW, love those lyrics. Beautiful. Robyn. OUT. hehe
That was wonderful...but I don't get much poetry, so I'm not sure exactly what's going on. Doesn't sound good though.
I'm sort of manic these days. I go back and forth between highs and lows. I've officially become Writing Bi-Polar.
Friends: I thought it best to explain quickly since some of you don't have email attached to your blogger name~
I have no idea what to call these words. Maybe poetry, maybe song lyrics. Regardless, it has been a bad week for writing and Candyland is officially tapped out.
I'm not quitting. I'm never giving up, but a few things have really taken me back and this is me, surrendering. To the pain. To the heartbreak. To the agony of everything being out of my control.
If you're a writer, I'm sure you *get* it.
Anyway, hopefully tomorrow is a better day.
Much love to you all.
~C
I get it. *hugs*
I've had my share of highs and lows, Believe me, the highs are better. *wry grin* Right now I'm in neutral. Hoping a high will come next, but bracing for a low.
It's an effin' roller coaster. Gotta learn to appreciate the ride, I guess.
Oh, writing is an awful roller coaster sometimes. Is it possible to be both up and down at the same time? That's were I am . . . two projects, two different places.
Candygirl, I cried when I read this and wish I could give you a hug.
The reason I said I love the poem/lyrics and that they were beautiful, was not to be heartless, Candy. I came back to make sure you knew that. I just felt your surrender while reading. And that to me was beautiful. It's all good and I understand where you're coming from. We all do. But we can't not write. It's who we are. Take a break. Step away. But I know you will never give up. Never give in.
(((hugs))) And lotsa love coming your way. Eat chocolate???
Here is a vitual hug from me to you. What did you tell me, take your medicine. So go put that CD in and rock on as you continue this journey that works us over every single day!
Hey, if you need an ear I am here. Just remember you are never alone as long as you have friends close by.
poetry- lyrics- whatever...
this was beautiful.
straight to the heart.
Girlie, take a break to refresh in the next few weeks. Then in 2011, bring it! You can. Hugs to you. This writing biz is not for the weak. We all need to stay strong and keep at it.
Unless a writer snags an agent within a couple weeks, this describes the query process perfectly - the feeling of getting an impersonal rejection from a full request. Not easy. And at some point, we have to surrender.
There is a freedom in surrender.
I get it.
When I surrender and truly let go of trying to control everything, I am amazed at what is within my reach.
It takes strength and courage to just stop and "be" for a bit.
Don't worry. It will come back to you.
Right now, both. I just redid the first three chapters of a novel and am feeling so good about them and normally I hate revising. But this also means I haven't finished a story that I wanted to have the rough draft done before the end of the year. So I really need to get cracking on it and that means a ton of words I have to write yet (major low).
Ah...nicely emoted. For me, I think the worst part of writing is the middle. Where there is no high or low, there just IS. That's where I am.
Oh, Candace! I love you and your HUGE heart. If you didn't have such a big heart, you couldn't experience such big emotions. Congratulations on your pitch win at Market My Words. I hope Josh loves your full MS, and I'll be praying for big things to come your way. Hang in there, girl.
Congrats on your win at Market My Words!!!!
kind of in the middle i guess? I was in slump yesterday after an irritating crit (so so irritating) but now i'm over that
Definitely get it. Big time. Allow yourself some surrender time. And when you're ready, you'll be that much stronger. Sounds lame, but it's true.
Love your poetry. You should post it more often.
I'm sorry candy. Beautiful poem. But it puts my own lows into perfect words too so I get you. Right now I'm not in a high or a low. I'm kind of in writing purgatory. Finished a book in October and am awaiting agent response. Not quite ready to start something new but soon...reading LOTS of books.
I get you and your poem. I feel you, sister. *hugs*
And, I'm sorry for your pain.
This is a difficult profession, fo sho. I am glad you're using your words and writing to express your feelings.
2011 is gonna be our YEAR, yo! So, get ready to bring da funk, K? K.
Happy Humpday, love.
lennylovesloveslovescandyland!
...big warm cozy hugs from your most big fan. ME! :)
This year has been wonderful, although the two years prior were definite Years of Suck. I love your poem, btw. It got me all choked up.
I understand the feeling of surrender ... but luckily after a few days' of submission, I've always come back kicking and willing to fight some more.
Lows are sometimes followed by highs, and often when you least expect it. Please hang in there!
Honey after one full week of dry and low, I finally got my mojo back last nite, just as I know you will bounce back soon. You always get er done in the end and that is all that counts
No worries! You will be high again! You will get your steam back and your spirit will fly again! Lows are unavoidable but don't let it keep you down. What goes up, must come down, but it doesn't have to stay there.
Chin up, you have us all behind you when you need us just call(write, email, etc)
Wow, that's really good!
Well, since I'm not querying right now, I'd say I'm doing great. Less than 20 K words to go on my first draft of the new project that's going to keep me sane (LOL) when I start querying again in the new year. :)
Ask me the same question in a month and a half time. ;)
I do *get* it. But I also recognize talent and how sometimes writers write some of their best stuff from a place of sadness and hurt. Tomorrow will be a better day. Hang in there.
I'm currently weathering the stormy seas of Stop Making Excuses and Get Back to It Already. Oy vey.
Lovely words.
So sorry you're having a bad time :( Hope your spirits lift soon and you can get back into the groove of writing.
I've been kinda overwhelmed lately with keeping up with blogs, writing, the house, christmas shopping and family. It's hard and sometimes I just want to give up.
Good luck- we're all rooting for you!
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