Wednesday, January 5, 2011

When you stumbled into Candyland...

Were you really looking for ball-cleaning techniques? 
If so, I'm sorry to disappoint. My balls are self-cleaning. Also, I'm not a chihuahua pitcher, I'm not 80 years old, I don't know Santa personally (but I hear he was a tightwad this year), and I do hugs, not drugs.

Seriously. Today I woke up so sad, so empty. But I turned on the computer and now I feel full and more complete than I have in a long, long time. You all have made me feel a part of something which is something I've never really had. You've never met me, yet you share my every tear, and offer all your love, support, prayers, and stories you've endured so I *know* I'm not alone.

There are no words for that.

Whether you're new or an old friend, if stumbled into Candyland over the last few days (weeks, really) and read about all of the personal tragedies, (and you browse Feel Me Up Fridays) you now know pretty much everything about me. One thing I've not mentioned in an EFFINGLONGTIME is something so dear to me, my face gets hot thinking about it (literally the color red) so you know I will by the end of this post.

When you're a lone blogger, going through tough times, it's good to have your blog buds to remind you you're alive, people care and you're not alone. I've gotten an overwhelming response via email, Jen's post, Jessica, Timmy Matthew and I've even talked to some of you on the phone before you surprised me with blog posts (Sharon), (I <3 U Lenny), which is beyond amazing (and now you know how awkward I am). Thank you to everyone who has reached out to me in some way, thought of me, wished me well, virtually cried with me, hugged your computer screen and pretended it was me, or even named your cat after me (the cool  one, not the a-hole).

But with all the love, there was still one thing missing deep in my soul. Until last night.
.......Erm....okay. So maybe that wasn't exactly what it said. Let's try this again.
Not as exciting, but I'll take it! And though I'm not all better from everything that's happened, I sure as hell feel like fighting now (thank you real life friends, bloggers new and old, hubs, offspring, Lenny who I love more than peanut butter cups, Jen who is the sparkliest of all sparkles, Jess who is truly the sister I never had, Timmy who is the sister I never had (seriously love you, woman), Sharon who is a beautiful soul I'm blessed to know and yes,----> THE BR80)...

When my balls get shiny again, I will have you all to thank. Yes, Candyland will thank you for taking good care of her balls during this difficult time. Balls balls balls (because I'm still me).

So tell me something friends...seriously. Tell me something, Anything. Because I'm sort of choked up here.

Candylandlovesyousoeffingmuch. OUT.

42 comments:

Jessica Bell said...

WE LOVE YOU!!!!! :O) xoxoxooxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxxxoxoxoxoxixoxooxthinkxoxoxothese xoxooxoxoarexoxoxoxogoingxoxoxoxoxoxtoxoxoxoxoxoxogoxoxoxoxoxoxxonxoxoxoxoxoxforeverxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Jessica Bell said...

damn, blogger cut my xoxoxo short. The last two words were 'on' and 'forever' :o)

Shannon said...

Glad to see you getting so much blog love and that your heart is on the mend.

Telling you something today:
The first known contraceptive was crocodile dung, used by Egyptians in 2000 B.C.

Jen Daiker said...

I totally saw I want you in that email too... he really meant it.

Candyland you seriously rock my socks off. I'm glad you're getting so much support. It is well deserved, you are the sweetest, kidnest, awesomest, coolest (and all other -est words) person I know.

PS - Thanks for making me sparkle :)

Deborah said...

Isn't it crazy! All the bloggy love you can get!!! Lucky I guess!
Have a great day my friend!
xxoo
Deborah

Sharon K. Mayhew said...

You are so special, Candace! Everyone goes through hard times...You just got a HUGE dose of them all at once. You can get through this. You are such a strong person. We love you and are here for you. Anytime you need us. (hug)

Merinda said...

Candace! I didn't make it over to visit you last week... But maybe Later this week or weekend? I think I need to hug you.

Hope E liked the book. (okay, you too!) lovelovelove!!

-Merinda

Linda G. said...

May your balls soon be shinier than ever. :)

Tracy said...

I was going to come up with something funny, but totally lost my train of thought after Shannon's crocodile dung comment. How can I compete with reptile poo?

It doesn't matter if your balls are shiny or not...so long as they aren't hairy.

Kelly said...

And lots of love to you right back!
XO

Dianne K. Salerni said...

Gee, I've been following you so long, I can't remember how I found your blog, but I don't *think* I was looking for chihuahuas.

Have a shiny ball day, Candace!

Jamie Burch said...

I don't know what to say, so instead I will do this...

*Happy Dance* ~ *Happy Dance* ~ *Happy Dance*

Jessica Nelson said...

I came over from Jessica B's blog. I'm glad things are looking up and that you feel like fighting. Definitely better than emptiness, right? :-)
Hope your day keeps getting better and better!

Janet Johnson said...

I loved Jessica's post about you . . . it totally captured you and your boatload of sincereness. Your karma is so built up from all the good you do, I know it will fall back on you soon. :)

Sending you lots of love!

Angela Felsted said...

I hope you feel better soon. Sending you hugs and kisses xoxoxoxo

Bryan Russell (Ink) said...

Oh, shit, I'm sorry to hear about all the difficulties you've been facing. And miscarriage is the great unspoken sadness of our times. So often denied, hidden away -- we pretend it doesn't happen, or pretend it isn't heartrending. But it's not so.

I have a link of a blogpost I wrote. Maybe you don't want to read it now, things being so fresh. Maybe you do. But you are certainly NOT alone. You have friends out here. And some of us have been through this. And it's nice to know that. It's nice to know it doesn't always have to be hidden. There are people who understand. And care.

Here it is, for if and when you might me ready to read it:

http://alchemyofwriting.blogspot.com/2009/02/observers-in-obscure-world.html

Best,
Bryan/Ink

Emy Shin said...

I just read Jen's post, and came over to offer prayers and hugs. I'm hoping things will be brighter for you, very very soon.

Kelly Dexter said...

I've tried to connect any number of dots, but I can't for the LIFE of me figure out how a person could be led to your blog by anything related to caring for balls.

Stranger things, I guess.

Justine Dell said...

I love you.

We all love you.

Just because you are you. No one can take that away. Smile, sweet Candy. ;-) Smile.

~JD

Melissa Gill said...

Glad to hear your feeling a bit better, that Brady wants you, and that you're balls are shiny!

Stina Lindenblatt said...

I saw all the blogging love you got this morning. Very sweet, and you deserved it. *hugs*

Carolyn Abiad said...

Just read Jessica's post, so I'm stopping in to share some ((hugs)).

Bossy Betty said...

Lenny sent me over--thinking of you. Sending you lots of positive thoughts.

Nicole Zoltack said...

*hugs*

You definitely deserve all the blog love, hun!

Lenny Lee* said...

hi miss candace! for sure you could feel better cause mr brady wants YOU! :) i want you too! i want you to feel better. i want you to know how much love everyones got for you! i want you to feel the love and all the hugs that been coming your way. I want you to know I LOVE YOU!
...lots of love and big hugs from lenny

Sarah Ahiers (Falen) said...

let's see, what can i tell you...
Oh! This morning my dog was sick (he's better now) because he ate a piece of my sister's underwear.
Sigh. What a little perve.

Matthew Rush said...

Umm ... EXCUSE ME! You said that "Jess who is truly the sister I never had, Timmy who is the sister I never had (seriously love you, woman)"

That either means that Jess and I are the same person, or she is "truly" something that I wish I could be. Either way you are a meany!

*'Not so Tiny Tim' sticks his tongue at at Bethany*

Sorry. I had to punch him in the face. Tim was getting out of line.

It's true though Candace, we are soul sistahs (you and me, not me and him)!

Tina Lynn said...

*squishy cyber hugs*

Hart Johnson said...

I've only popped in now and again, but you sure have some awesome friendships. I'm glad the blogosphere helps set at least your spirits to rights when you're down. And very cool recognition for all your hard work! I hope all the other stuff improves!

Chris Phillips said...

Dearest Santa,

I'm writing to ask you for the following: A new puppy (preferably a Chihuahua,) Axe body wash (to clean my balls,) some drugs, and a pitcher to put my new puppy into. Also thank you for our dear friend Candace, who has felt like she's 80 lately, but doesn't as much now. I have been mostly good this year.

your pal,
-chris

E. Elle said...

I am a new follower to your blog so I'm not sure what I could say. But if you're just looking to hear something...

You are blessed with some mighty wonderful people in your life. And I look forward to learning more about you and your journey through life. :)

Old Kitty said...

Sharon K Mayhew and Matthew Rush sent me over. I wasn't too certain as to what was going on but now I've read your previous posts, I'm a bit more with it!

I am truly sorry for your loss. I can only imagine what you are going through. I can only share grief as I've known grief before too but your pain and loss is yours and yours only. I can only share tears and sorrow. I know we should be strong and be fighters too but sometimes, sometimes it's nice to just be.

Please take care.
x

aspiring_x said...

love ya babe!!! :)
(and i think you are a total genius for deciphering that brady code!!! the hidden message is TOTALLY there!)

Carolyn V. said...

(hugs)(hugs)(hugs)(hugs)(hugs)(hugs)
And lots of <3 <3 <3 <3

Elana Johnson said...

It's always good to be reminded that in a world of pain and suck and hurt and rejection and loss and pain and suck that there are good people out there.

Dawn said...

Some much deserved blogger love. Happy you are feeling better. Hugs.

Lydia K said...

You are beautiful and strong.
I want to be more like you.

Hugs,
Lydia

Jenn McKay said...

Hey Candace, I was reading Jessica's blog. You are very highly recommended, and after reading just one post I can see why. I'll be back. And I'll be reading more about your life as already posted.

Take care,

Jenn
Do you have some love to share? Love Every Day

Colene Murphy said...

I'm pretty sure the real message was the hidden one. He can't just come right out and SAY it you know? Hidden love...ah...how romantic ;)

But love for you, as evidence by all the bloggers and readers out there of her Candylandness, is easy and immense.

Stephen Tremp said...

As Sam would say to Whats-Her-name ... ditto. You look like you have a great group of friends over here. I really should visit more often!

Yaya' s Home said...

I'm learning that the blog world is a family all its own. You are deep in my heart an' if I could I would wipe the slate clean so's you could start with all things good. Since I cannot quite do that, jus' know that I care.

~ Yaya

Abby Minard said...

You'll have to post a pic of your balls once they are all shined up. ;p

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