Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Hugs, not drugs

I'm a bit at a loss today.

One year ago, something happened that completely changed the course of my life, forever. It changed me from whatever sort of person I was, and turned me into all kids of things I never expected. I've talked about it before, so today, if you want to know why September 29th is the day of life, loss and re-birth, see links below. And please, remember to hug someone today. Make it an extra-long hug (awkward is good). Because hugs make things better.

To find what the deal is re: September 29th, READ HERE.
To see the aftermath, READ HERE.
To read about my worst (fictional) nightmare, READ HERE.
To find out how Matt Brady + New Medicine brought me back to life, READ HERE.

Do you have a day that's hard to re-live, friends?
Candyland.OUT.


27 comments:

Anne said...

Thinking of you (not in the shower) and sending mega hugs your way!

salarsenッ said...

Chest pounding and feeling it too. Damn I wish we were closer. I could use a personal chat (bitch session).

((hugs))

Christine Danek said...

I'm giving hugs to you now. I was lost then found, too.

Big hugs from me. :)

Linda G. said...

*Hugs*

Jen Daiker said...

Sending hugs, brownies and sparkles YOUR WAY!!!

The begging months of every year are especially tough for me, very hard to get through, but I soldier on and reminder that those days are past me, though sometimes they do haunt me.

Matthew Rush said...

I'm so sorry Candace.

I have several days where terrible shit has happened, but I've made sure to forget the dates so that I don't have a terrible day each time the calendar rolls past that one.

*gives an inappropriately long, awkward hug* which is the best damn kind.

Jaydee Morgan said...

*hugs*...and here's to many more today coming your way :)

Sharon K. Mayhew said...

Hugs, prayers and my thoughts coming your way friend. Know that you are not alone...and it's okay to stop and be sad and reflect today...(((((hug)))))

Kelly Breakey said...

The day my Gram passed was the hardest day I have had to go through. She lived a good life and was a good woman. She worked hard and prayed hard. She didn't have too much fun in her long life, but she did have faith. She had family and she had integrity. She passed all of those things on to me and each day it gets a little easier, but it never really goes away. The loss, the bewilderment. I get that life goes on and death is part of the cycle, but loss, no matter what kind, leaves a little less of the people left behind. Because how can we not be touched?

Carolyn V. said...

(((HUGS))) I've gone through that kind of loss too. It wasn't easy. ((extra hugs))

Mara Nash said...

Been thru the same thing 4 times myself so I understand how you feel. And I always wonder, what if? Then I go hug and kiss the ones I've got and I'm thankful. But it's never easy.

Thinking of you today! *hugs*

aspiring_x said...

*hugs*

Jo Schaffer said...

Long, awkward, virtual hug...just for you.
Thanks for sharing your soul.
Sometimes things suck. And then they don't.
Hope today is good to you. You're a tough woman. (= Kicking butt and taking names.
You, go.

Rose Cooper said...

Thank you for sharing so much with us. I know that must be difficult, but at the same time, it must also be theraputic to share and know you're not alone. October 19th is a bad day for me. And for my family. I won't talk about here. This is your place to share, not mine. But maybe i'll have the courage like you to share one day too.

BTW, I say you face on that last post for the first time ever. I have to say, you. are. stunning.

Creepy Query Girl said...

awe. I'd give you a long, hard, awkward hug right now if I could. I'm sorry you have go through any day that brings you down and there are million motivating and uplifting things I could say but I don't think any of them will help. So I'll just say I'm here and thinking of you.

LTM said...

I kind of had like a six-month period I hope never to relive again. I blogged about it way back in like Feb... "I happen to like New York" is the name if you're interested. But you know that ole "that which does not kill us thing."

screw it. ((big, long, awkward hug)) oh! and I pinched your butt... ;p

Shannon O'Donnell said...

(((BIG hugs)))

You know I heart you! So far, praise God, I don't have any days that black. You are in my thoughts today.

Colene Murphy said...

Would love to give a big hug to you! Be thinking of you today.

Lenny Lee! said...

miss candace. i know you hurt.
i cant make it not hurt. i can just only say i care and i love you!
...biggest HUGS ever from Lenny

Shannon said...

I don't remember specific days; I tend to block them out. Hell, I've erased years! Does that mean that I'm actually younger than my driver's license indicates?

Mad hugs and hopefully good things coming your way.

MUH!

Kelley said...

*super hugs*

I have a few days that i try not to think about too much as well.

Stina Lindenblatt said...

Mega hugs for you today, girl. I don't know what you're going through, but I feel your pain. :D

(p.s. Lenny's comment just made me cry)

Jeff King said...

My heart goes out to you… and your advice will not be wasted.

Thx for sharing.

Dawn said...

HUgs, sweetie. Lots and lots and LOTS of hugs.

Nicole Zoltack said...

*huge hug*

Kelly Dexter said...

Big, awkward hugs. Also, smiles, because Jen leaves people sparkles and that is the most adorable thing in the world.

Slamdunk said...

I am late, but thanks for sharing your story with us on such a sad and difficult topic.